Ideas and Dreams and Prayer

So....I've been in the process of trying to find my nitch with my creativity. First I started making baby things...from clothes, to accessories, to gift baskets for baby showers. Then that ship seemed to sail...so then I got back into doing hair, weddings, prom, etc. Well after Baby GAP was born, my clients died off due to my availability and time. Now I have a new dream/idea in the works...I've tossed around a lot of ideas to friends and family. I never felt that I could commit to the business I originally had thought of, mainly because my views have changed over the past few years. Life isn't just about making it through each day, or doing the minimum to get by....its about serving our Lord, spreading his word through your love and interaction with others. I may have views some don't agree with, but when I look at the big picture, I see a world of people lost in translation. People searching for answers, wanting control, but unwilling to acknowledge how much God has helped them in life. If we feel this need to be in control...its because your out of control. Not to say your crazy or acting wild, but to say "YOU ARE NOT IN CONTROL OF YOUR LIFE." If you desire than control, look to God. I look at our children who look to God for everything, the world around them may be a wreck but that know God will take care of them. Big E soaks up so much knowledge and love when he reads the bible, a 6 year old reading a bible and finding it fulfilling is such a blessing. When I look at what we have ahead of us, what our children may deal with. I think what can I do as a parent to not only protect them while they are young, but prepare them for what's to come in their future. After prayerful discernment I feel that as a woman who went through some serious self disrespect as a young adult, I don't want that for our kids. I want them to know who they are to feel proud to be a moral individual, whether they are accepted for who they are or not. Children should have confidence that who they are will one day attract their future spouse. They shouldn't be looking for that spouse at the age of 16, or 18... Children of today look for love at a younger and younger age, though its not the fulfilling kind of love. Its the empty love, the one you turn around to days, weeks, or months later and ask...where that part of me that I gave to that person. I'm missing a piece of who I am and they took it with them...they loved that person too much to know when love turned to lust. Oh the lack of self respect teens today have. I sat with my mom in front of a restaurant the other night, we were just chatting. Then suddenly a teenage girl passes by our car in what could have been labeled at boyshort(i.e. swim bottoms, or panties). Sadly I don't look at this girl and think, what trash, I think...her poor soul. God help her to respect herself so others can respect her in return. We head inside the restaurant and sit down, still talking about what we witnessed, as I turn to see a girl across from us in Daisy Dukeish still shorts...with are you ready for this....a black tube bra under a completely see through long sleeve black shirt. She was with her boyfriend just soaking up all the attention she could get from him. It brought me back to when I was that age, I remember trying to hard to get a guys attention....and for what a smile!?!? So...after witnessing all this I began to think about what's missing in our youth and why they don't respect who they are. Its a lack or good role models, God, good family structure, and the big one which is created by all this SELF RESPECT. What can we do to make a change, to help our youth, and the future families of our nation... Aside from praying for God to watch over and protect them...I'm int he process of doing some serious research on what's missing that we can provide as physical help to each and every girl. Obviously for a business to function you need money to make things, do things, get the ball rolling. So yes I think a business like this may need to have some kind of purchase involved, but I also think that it can be affordable. Businesses can manage helping those in need if those that have a little extra can pay the actual cost of things. So I ask you as you read this to please pray for me as I pray and decern what my role should be in helping our youth, but specifically girls of today, respect themselves so they can find the eternal love they need in their futures. BTW..this website is a great way to get info on modesty guidelines for girls, so they learn to dress to respect their bodies. http://www.purefashion.com/cities/austin

Our Little Posey School House

So this start to our second semester hasn't gone as well as I would have liked. No ones fault just organization and a lack of knowledge in what to do next has left me questioning what to do next year. After lots of research and prayer, my sister and I did some thorough research just last week again. I had closed the door on Seton Home-school, but after more research and the fact that they have over 11,000 students enrolled...Devin and I have decided that next year Big E will start with Seton. The school is know for having a rigorous work load, that being said Big E is super smart and I think he really needs that structure and challenge to enjoy school. Not to mention they keep track of everything and when it comes to high school and graduation they take care of your transcripts. They are also "Under the Magisterium of the Catholic Church." Another bonus that we like is their tuition includes books, so your not paying just for the school you paying for everything. I look forward to trying this new route next year, and if its not the path for Big E we can always try something else. All this being said, I do feel like we have a pretty good curriculum flow going. Its a mish mash of a bunch of different curricula : Math You See(Alpha), Story of the Worlds(my favorite), Phonic Tutor, Explode the Code, Usborne Children's Encyclopedia, Prima Latina, and we practice writing the date and prayers every day. I'm sure some think that it sounds like I have it down pretty good, but I'm a self doubter and I feel I need support from an outside entity. I do have another favorite subject this year other than Story of the World...Prima Latina! I absolutely love learning Latin with Big E. Our newest accomplishment is learning the Doxology, though we already not the Holy, Holy, Holy prayer. Gloria Patri, Filio, Spiritui Sancto. Glory be to the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit. Sicut erat in principio, et nunc, et semper, As it was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall be, et in saecula saeculorum. Amen. world without end. Amen. I never imagined enjoying learning a language as much as I enjoy learning Latin. We have learned alot of verbs a handful of nouns, counting to 10. So much fun, I think Big E really likes it too. Latin has become an exciting lesson in our day. Just last week Big E started martial arts at Tiger Rock in Leander, he's doing it during the day with other home-schoolers and has the opportunity to do it a total of 6 days a week. Really looking forward to watching him learn and grow in martial arts. Yesterday Big E was awarded with his Bobcat Badge and Tiger Badge in Cub Scouts. He's so proud of himself, I can't believe how much he's doing and learning everyday. He's growing up too fast and I feel so blessed and lucky to be able to home-school our kids and have such a big influence in their lives. You don't realize how valuable home-schooling is til you get to really know your kids and how they think...who they are? I was in public school and begged to be home-schooled back when it wasn't popular. I missed my family so much and felt like my sister and I would have been so much closer had we been home-schooled. Mad and Big E are bonding so much, they love their time together, and though kids fight and it can be overwhelming. I wouldn't change anything about having all our kids home with me all day. Anyone out there that has an opportunity to home-school should do it, it could change yours, your kids, and your families lives in ways you never imagined. Coming from a Catholic point of view, I feel I'm getting to teach our kids about God and prayer and a relationship with God in ways I didn't realize were possible. God thank you for letting us home-school.

Love and marriage...with 3 kids!

So my hubby and I have been married for 6 years this April, we have changed so much since we were first together. The biggest change is losing time together with 3 kids running every which way. I've started trying to find extra time for each other and realized. Maybe if the time isn't available for both of us....I can use my available time after everyone's in bed. So on the eve of Valentines Day...I thought to myself what can I do to make this day mean something to us. So...I took pink and red construction paper and wrote notes about why I loved him all over the house. Some of the locations I put them were related to what the note said i.e."I love laying in bed with you doing nothing." So I put that heart above our bed. You get the idea anyways. I also thought I'd use the left over paper for notes too. Then the other day I came up with the idea of using our stainless steel frig as a dry erase board for chores. It worked out great so tonight I used it as a giant note to my hubby about how much I love him. This is what Valentines Day should be about...not spending money, buying gift, or going crazy with candy. It should be about sharing your love with the one you love. Expect nothing in return and receive everything.

Prayer and Family

Today was a typical school day but when we ended the day. I had planned for Big E and I to write some prayers and we can begin praying them in our own time. God has blessed us with such amazing children. Big E's love for God just blows me away. Here's his prayer.Written by Big EFamily PrayerGod, Holy, Holy, Holy, God, Lord God I love you as much as I love everybody. So does my family, Bless everyone and everything on the planet. AMENIndividual PrayerHoly God I hope you love me and I hope Mary loves me too. AMENToday I told him we should study the Pope soon so he could learn more about who the Pope is and what his job is. E told me he already knows his job. I ask him what and he says, "The Pope is the guy who blesses the rosaries!" Sooo...just about the cutest observation ever. Guess we have some learning to do about the Pope. Wouldn't want his only job to be blessing rosaries...lol.